Mar 2009
BRAIN DRAIN!
March 27, 2009 02:47 PM
prolonged
band = BRAIN DRAIN
i feel like i'm falling sick.. HANG ON MAN! only.. erm.. 4 days?.. yikes-ed..
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the sun will come out, tomorrow
wait for me.. for waiting for you, have i always been
i feel like i'm falling sick.. HANG ON MAN! only.. erm.. 4 days?.. yikes-ed..
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the sun will come out, tomorrow
wait for me.. for waiting for you, have i always been
erm..
March 24, 2009 09:15 PM
no title
bahs..
i dunno what i'm feeling. somehow, stepping down from band seems so great, no more constraints, i can go if i want, not if i don't. no more headaches or stress to get everything right. yet, i'm so going to miss it, all the friends i've made there over the four years.. fine three and abit. i mean, it's practically been all the friends i've had for the past few years in high school! sharon, michelle, julia, karmen, rayner.. wenlong even. and evian? dude! all band ppl! until more recently, there've been some really great 3e/4e ppl too. i just hope that, after this coming tuesday, everything will remain. that, even though that one common thing will be but a memory, that our friendships will grow stronger and everything. it's not supposed to end. just let it be the same. dear Lord, now comes the real test. though all this, from now till august, please enable me to keep those friendships and continue to grow them in you. i hope that those friends that i have now made, are not temporary. but that will last.
might want to check foreveramen.sofamily.ws for daily updates.
This is Carissa, signing out
wait for me.. for waiting for you, have i always been
i dunno what i'm feeling. somehow, stepping down from band seems so great, no more constraints, i can go if i want, not if i don't. no more headaches or stress to get everything right. yet, i'm so going to miss it, all the friends i've made there over the four years.. fine three and abit. i mean, it's practically been all the friends i've had for the past few years in high school! sharon, michelle, julia, karmen, rayner.. wenlong even. and evian? dude! all band ppl! until more recently, there've been some really great 3e/4e ppl too. i just hope that, after this coming tuesday, everything will remain. that, even though that one common thing will be but a memory, that our friendships will grow stronger and everything. it's not supposed to end. just let it be the same. dear Lord, now comes the real test. though all this, from now till august, please enable me to keep those friendships and continue to grow them in you. i hope that those friends that i have now made, are not temporary. but that will last.
might want to check foreveramen.sofamily.ws for daily updates.
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wait for me.. for waiting for you, have i always been
wait..
March 22, 2009 09:00 PM
wait..
such a foreign word.
what a wonderful world.. yeah.. hw piled up to the dunno where.
link
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wait for me.. for waiting for you, have i always been
what a wonderful world.. yeah.. hw piled up to the dunno where.
link
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wait for me.. for waiting for you, have i always been
preacher's kid
March 21, 2009 08:52 PM
nobody is
perfect.
bottom line. very nice episode. i like it. i like quite a few episodes.. i think i need to narrow my favorites to some.
no matter how much you may disappoint me, i will never stop loving you ~george barclay
george said this to donna at the end of the episode. i think it's a good reminder. and i think that it's like that with the Lord too. i'm never not loved, even if i do the darkest things.
link out for today's stuff.
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i know a place where no one's lost, i know a place where no one cries..
bottom line. very nice episode. i like it. i like quite a few episodes.. i think i need to narrow my favorites to some.
no matter how much you may disappoint me, i will never stop loving you ~george barclay
george said this to donna at the end of the episode. i think it's a good reminder. and i think that it's like that with the Lord too. i'm never not loved, even if i do the darkest things.
link out for today's stuff.
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i know a place where no one's lost, i know a place where no one cries..
March 20, 2009 11:42 PM
clariNUTs...
WEIRDO section..
but a very intriguing one at that.
link lar!
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i know a place where no one's lost, i know a place where no one cries..
but a very intriguing one at that.
link lar!
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i know a place where no one's lost, i know a place where no one cries..
WOAH JUSTINE!
March 19, 2009 09:22 PM
LOOOOOOOOOONG
POST JUSTINE!
just realized, after spending all my money, how hard it is to get things that match pokey. he's like, totally hard to match and the thing is.. i spent almost a 100 bucks! yikes-ed, oh wells... that is so michelle.. ANYWAYS.
i'm feeling rather hwguilty..
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i know a place where no one's lost, i know a place where no one cries..
just realized, after spending all my money, how hard it is to get things that match pokey. he's like, totally hard to match and the thing is.. i spent almost a 100 bucks! yikes-ed, oh wells... that is so michelle.. ANYWAYS.
i'm feeling rather hwguilty..
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i know a place where no one's lost, i know a place where no one cries..
over stretched
March 18, 2009 11:29 PM
seriously...
crazed out.
nearing 4plus, 5ish today, we played overture, d. and it was like... all clarinet, flute and picc and oboe. and i was getting super tired. i actually almost dozed off during practice.. and while playing which is super dumb. i pressed so crap hard on the piccolo, cos tired mah, cannot pitch so somehow it registers to push harder. and my teeth are like.. dislocated. it moves, now a little better but still painful when i press on it. BOTTOM LINE, i'm freaky tired.
since was going to go for that expensive lunch with my juniors on friday, thought i'd put piano lessons on thursday, then go a little earlier for band, do a little long note exercises. i need those, cos my playing is deteriorating, neglecting the basics... anyways, totally forgot about that chinese tuition, also on thursday at the same time. WA LAO! i already don't get anything from it to begin with.. and now i'm crazed out to go for it AND piano lessons, which, in case i missed to mention, is beginning to piss me as well. two things that are getting my my nerves are pushing their way in, perfect.. i feel like just not going for tuition totally, ponning, in another words, or just camping out in school or something.. dear Lord please show me a way out of this..
i admit, my priorities may be messed to some ppl. i guess normal humans but studies and tuition first then cca. or maybe some musics crazy ppl put band concurrent with tuition in priorities. but here, i guess, band is like.. i dunno, just this time which, although gets me irritated at times.. makes me feel, peaceful and.. well, relaxed? i dunno. and at the same time do what i like, flute-ing, that's not a word but OH WELLS. i'm getting really annoyed when people talk as if band is no big deal. DUDE! it's extremely insulting and i have feelings to. and pls don't forget that i am HUMAN. i got limits, and i'm not a very tolerant person either. push a little and i blow. just like with the flutes...
does it really help? is it really bringing out the best in me? or is it bringing out the worst? did you put me through this to make me better? or to make me worse? in all that's happened, it's only caused me more harm than good. do you really want to see me angry, irritated and annoyed all the time? do you really want me to feel that home isn't hom-ey and that there is not what warmth there should be? is that supposed to be consistent in homes?
i wanna hug my piccolo and sleep for the rest of the year..
i'm still holding to the hope that my juniors will one day realize how much band means to me. but if they don't, it's okay, because i know it, and i know a person who knows it, and i also know that my best of best of best friends knows too.
This is Carissa, signing out
there is a castle on the cloud.. i wish i could go there in my sleep, and not wake up till my worries are gone..
nearing 4plus, 5ish today, we played overture, d. and it was like... all clarinet, flute and picc and oboe. and i was getting super tired. i actually almost dozed off during practice.. and while playing which is super dumb. i pressed so crap hard on the piccolo, cos tired mah, cannot pitch so somehow it registers to push harder. and my teeth are like.. dislocated. it moves, now a little better but still painful when i press on it. BOTTOM LINE, i'm freaky tired.
since was going to go for that expensive lunch with my juniors on friday, thought i'd put piano lessons on thursday, then go a little earlier for band, do a little long note exercises. i need those, cos my playing is deteriorating, neglecting the basics... anyways, totally forgot about that chinese tuition, also on thursday at the same time. WA LAO! i already don't get anything from it to begin with.. and now i'm crazed out to go for it AND piano lessons, which, in case i missed to mention, is beginning to piss me as well. two things that are getting my my nerves are pushing their way in, perfect.. i feel like just not going for tuition totally, ponning, in another words, or just camping out in school or something.. dear Lord please show me a way out of this..
i admit, my priorities may be messed to some ppl. i guess normal humans but studies and tuition first then cca. or maybe some musics crazy ppl put band concurrent with tuition in priorities. but here, i guess, band is like.. i dunno, just this time which, although gets me irritated at times.. makes me feel, peaceful and.. well, relaxed? i dunno. and at the same time do what i like, flute-ing, that's not a word but OH WELLS. i'm getting really annoyed when people talk as if band is no big deal. DUDE! it's extremely insulting and i have feelings to. and pls don't forget that i am HUMAN. i got limits, and i'm not a very tolerant person either. push a little and i blow. just like with the flutes...
does it really help? is it really bringing out the best in me? or is it bringing out the worst? did you put me through this to make me better? or to make me worse? in all that's happened, it's only caused me more harm than good. do you really want to see me angry, irritated and annoyed all the time? do you really want me to feel that home isn't hom-ey and that there is not what warmth there should be? is that supposed to be consistent in homes?
i wanna hug my piccolo and sleep for the rest of the year..
i'm still holding to the hope that my juniors will one day realize how much band means to me. but if they don't, it's okay, because i know it, and i know a person who knows it, and i also know that my best of best of best friends knows too.
This is Carissa, signing out
there is a castle on the cloud.. i wish i could go there in my sleep, and not wake up till my worries are gone..
DE
March 12, 2009 07:38 PM
lessons,
not so bad. everything after that.. was absolutely
horrible.
look, what you guys do will impact me, it may hurt, but i'm not going to get lost from behind you. you can't change my feelings with words or actions.
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there is a castle on the cloud, i like to go there in my sleep. there are no floors for me to sweep, there in my castle on the cloud.
look, what you guys do will impact me, it may hurt, but i'm not going to get lost from behind you. you can't change my feelings with words or actions.
This is Carissa, signing out
there is a castle on the cloud, i like to go there in my sleep. there are no floors for me to sweep, there in my castle on the cloud.
SORRY MICHELLE!
March 08, 2009 12:04 AM
official
apology for dropping my flute headjoint!
basically cos my dear junior gets super untight when i treat my picc better than my flute.. xD
dear Lord please grant me your grace and let her be able to play well..
foreveramen
no hdflgs just
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cherishing the good times and embracing the bad times
basically cos my dear junior gets super untight when i treat my picc better than my flute.. xD
dear Lord please grant me your grace and let her be able to play well..
foreveramen
no hdflgs just
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cherishing the good times and embracing the bad times
jogathon
March 06, 2009 02:03 PM
check
out foreveramen lar..
quite pointless, but i feel that a little interesting. walked around with sharon the whole time literally. so she and me is the 'we' in foreveramen, cos i pretty sure i won't put name lar... or rather i'll think about it.
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time you never want to forget are times you share with those who have the greatest impact in your life.
quite pointless, but i feel that a little interesting. walked around with sharon the whole time literally. so she and me is the 'we' in foreveramen, cos i pretty sure i won't put name lar... or rather i'll think about it.
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time you never want to forget are times you share with those who have the greatest impact in your life.
SYF09
March 03, 2009 09:55 PM
link..
names list printed.
two dates that will be quite engraved in me:
April 11, 2007 SYF1
March 31, 2009 SYF2
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i have let you down
names list printed.
two dates that will be quite engraved in me:
April 11, 2007 SYF1
March 31, 2009 SYF2
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i have let you down
i hate my temper
March 02, 2009 08:08 PM