Stop.
03/05/09 17:49
I have to
stop. Get my priorities straight. Its not about waiting
anymore. There's no time for that. Every thing's going
too fast now. I have to buckle down double hard on my
studies. I can't let anything distract me. I can't be a
distraction either.
Okay, I'm so not going to elaborate. If you want to know about my personal life, you can ask me.
Its spinning out of control... You're right, I have to remember, as always, that God is the one who gives us the strength to carry on. Thanks for the reminder. I need to be reminded a lot sometimes. God, please help us all and give us the strength to live and grow in You.
God has already blessed me so much with understandings, I can't let all that come to waste, and go back to square one. I don't want to do that.
I'm still a teen. I'm still young. We all are.
Okay, I'm so not going to elaborate. If you want to know about my personal life, you can ask me.
Its spinning out of control... You're right, I have to remember, as always, that God is the one who gives us the strength to carry on. Thanks for the reminder. I need to be reminded a lot sometimes. God, please help us all and give us the strength to live and grow in You.
God has already blessed me so much with understandings, I can't let all that come to waste, and go back to square one. I don't want to do that.
I'm still a teen. I'm still young. We all are.
19/04/09 15:46
It just
seem that all my life I've been different, full of
questions and thoughts to ponder over, worries that I
could put aside always float directly to my head and
I've always needed someone steady to tell me what to
do, and to lean on for support. Its always been up and
down, like a crazy storm, unpredictable, and
unreliable. I can't even trust my own feelings, its
like I'm messed and yet, I can sort it all out at the
same time. O.o...
I KNOW, I know...
I wonder what God has in store for me. He didn't give me an abnormal life to live a normal future. But I shall be patient. God will let me know in time. In His time.
I KNOW, I know...
I wonder what God has in store for me. He didn't give me an abnormal life to live a normal future. But I shall be patient. God will let me know in time. In His time.
18/04/09 14:38
And now I
know which I'll take, I'll take the world from God's
eyes. :)
I know the results of knowing. There is a feeling of being different, of sadness sometimes, and... sometimes you're misunderstood. Its complicated. But I know I can lean on God, and He also gives me people to trust and talk to too.
I know I'm not a normal average girl my age, I know my emotional intelligence level is up and down-ish. My maturity level is abnormal. (lols and so there vincent/gabriel) I'm just not the average girl am I?
But with God's grace and with Love, I'll live.
To those who are forever Happy, you are blessed. But is happiness the same as Joy? No. I'll probably talk about this some other time.
I wonder when I'll ever post normal posts? Haha, like those normal people post actually about their day? Who am I kidding? I'm totally unlike normal people.
And now that you know, and if you find it weird or strange, you don't have to like me, I know I'm different. :) Its your choice. :)
To those who found this page, God Bless! :D (Tell me what you think yeah?)
Waiting for God's signal. And His Call.
I know the results of knowing. There is a feeling of being different, of sadness sometimes, and... sometimes you're misunderstood. Its complicated. But I know I can lean on God, and He also gives me people to trust and talk to too.
I know I'm not a normal average girl my age, I know my emotional intelligence level is up and down-ish. My maturity level is abnormal. (lols and so there vincent/gabriel) I'm just not the average girl am I?
But with God's grace and with Love, I'll live.
To those who are forever Happy, you are blessed. But is happiness the same as Joy? No. I'll probably talk about this some other time.
I wonder when I'll ever post normal posts? Haha, like those normal people post actually about their day? Who am I kidding? I'm totally unlike normal people.
And now that you know, and if you find it weird or strange, you don't have to like me, I know I'm different. :) Its your choice. :)
To those who found this page, God Bless! :D (Tell me what you think yeah?)
Waiting for God's signal. And His Call.
15/04/09 21:17
Remember
the Jelly Walls in one of my previous posts? I think I
wanted to feel more secure, not let the big hard walls
in my life hammer me down... I was kidding myself into
thinking that I could be safe, if those walls were
softer. Lying to myself about how tough those problems
really were.
Well, those jelly walls have melted away. And you know? The walls ARE hard. (I know, believe me.)
Now, I feel like I'm divided. A part of me wants to remain in that sweet jelly dream, refusing to see the bitter harsh hardness of the world, and another part of me, the logical side, remains strictly aware of the truth of how the world is, and how it is. So, what'll it be, see the truth, and be miserable, or take the task of blocking out the truth, and living a false one.
And then I wonder. How does God fit into all of this?
Well, those jelly walls have melted away. And you know? The walls ARE hard. (I know, believe me.)
Now, I feel like I'm divided. A part of me wants to remain in that sweet jelly dream, refusing to see the bitter harsh hardness of the world, and another part of me, the logical side, remains strictly aware of the truth of how the world is, and how it is. So, what'll it be, see the truth, and be miserable, or take the task of blocking out the truth, and living a false one.
And then I wonder. How does God fit into all of this?
