Apr 2009
What time does to a person
29/04/09 21:38
What time
does to a person
Incredible
needless to say
It changes us
In so many ways
Changes
Physical appearance
Head Knowledge
Thinking process
Values, Attitude, Character
Mental state
Maturity
Emotional state
Ability
Walk with God
(Spiritual state)
What (should)
remain the same
Love
What being in sec school does to a person
Smarter
More extroverted
Opens up your social circles
and tests your social skills
Teaches you life lessons
not just by books
but also for life
Experiences you'll never forget
But there's downs too
More peer pressure
More stress
More emotional breakdowns
Tougher on your spirit
Lose sight of your moral values
Less innocent
More insensitive
Experiences you'll never forget
What teen life does to a person
Makes you lose that child
you thought you would never.
What time does to a person
It changes you forever.
Sorry, not the best ever, but yeah. I suddenly thought of those lists and jotted them down.
Time.
Justme Justine.
Busy thinking at 9.38pm
Incredible
needless to say
It changes us
In so many ways
Changes
Physical appearance
Head Knowledge
Thinking process
Values, Attitude, Character
Mental state
Maturity
Emotional state
Ability
Walk with God
(Spiritual state)
What (should)
remain the same
Love
What being in sec school does to a person
Smarter
More extroverted
Opens up your social circles
and tests your social skills
Teaches you life lessons
not just by books
but also for life
Experiences you'll never forget
But there's downs too
More peer pressure
More stress
More emotional breakdowns
Tougher on your spirit
Lose sight of your moral values
Less innocent
More insensitive
Experiences you'll never forget
What teen life does to a person
Makes you lose that child
you thought you would never.
What time does to a person
It changes you forever.
Sorry, not the best ever, but yeah. I suddenly thought of those lists and jotted them down.
Time.
Justme Justine.
Busy thinking at 9.38pm
26/04/09 19:24
My
indirectness was my folly. I should have answered you
properly. I'm sorry.
Justme Justine.
Busy thinking at 7.24pm
Justme Justine.
Busy thinking at 7.24pm
April 2009
26/04/09 18:22
I liked
today's sermon. It means a lot that God bothered to
give me a push in the right direction, especially
because of yesterday night.
I was confused, and was having mostly negative feelings about everything, even though theory-wise, I should be quite stable. But of course, despite all that knowledge, you can still feel quite stupid, and feel depressing emotions.
In today's sermon, I felt like God was talking to me, telling me what I shouldn't have done, and as he's been telling me for at least two weeks now, I should just learn to trust. If I felt anxiety, that would just mean I think God is uncaring and couldn't stop my problems or help me through. But that's not true.
It quite amazing how the solutions to the problems in life I face surface whether through experiences or just a message. And its simply grace, how God calls, just to see how you're doing, and gives you advice, whether directly, or through someone who cares about you.
I liked worship today too. Though the songs weren't about God's love for his Bride, but still, I enjoy Glorifying God and those were still beautiful songs. Gabriel was playing piano today
too.
Sadly, I had to leave service early. My tummy area wasn't feeling so well. ): (It was pretty hurting during the whole service D Mag accompanied me though. And
when I came out of the toilet, the service was
not out yet, so I asked her to pray for me next
to the staircase. Thanks Mag! God Bless you too!
Anyways, reflecting on the last month (this being the last week of April 2009, which will never come again, I think things are looking upper.
And God's been touching me more.
Only by His grace.
;D I'm His little Darling. ;D
And so are all of You! ;D
Loves,
Justme Justine.
Justine was thinking about and thanking God for her life at 6.22pm.
I was confused, and was having mostly negative feelings about everything, even though theory-wise, I should be quite stable. But of course, despite all that knowledge, you can still feel quite stupid, and feel depressing emotions.
In today's sermon, I felt like God was talking to me, telling me what I shouldn't have done, and as he's been telling me for at least two weeks now, I should just learn to trust. If I felt anxiety, that would just mean I think God is uncaring and couldn't stop my problems or help me through. But that's not true.
It quite amazing how the solutions to the problems in life I face surface whether through experiences or just a message. And its simply grace, how God calls, just to see how you're doing, and gives you advice, whether directly, or through someone who cares about you.
I liked worship today too. Though the songs weren't about God's love for his Bride, but still, I enjoy Glorifying God and those were still beautiful songs.
Gabriel was playing piano today
too.
Sadly, I had to leave service early. My tummy area wasn't feeling so well. ): (It was pretty hurting during the whole service D
Mag accompanied me though. And
when I came out of the toilet, the service was
not out yet, so I asked her to pray for me next
to the staircase. Thanks Mag! God Bless you too!
Anyways, reflecting on the last month (this being the last week of April 2009, which will never come again, I think things are looking upper.
And God's been touching me more.
Only by His grace.
;D I'm His little Darling. ;D
And so are all of You! ;D
Loves,
Justme Justine.
Justine was thinking about and thanking God for her life at 6.22pm.
21/04/09 22:37
Just
dropping a short post,
Thank you God. Yaynessestictismness...
Today was relatively a good day. A poor rather drowsy school day, but after the last period, WHEE! Napfa, which I did better than I
expected, (Except for sit and reach which was
the one item that would have prevented me from
getting a gold... >.< But I just managed.
I should get a gold if I'm not
wrong.) Anyways, we finished earlier than I
expected. And I'd already ran on fri, so
yay.
Um... ya. I felt really sleepy this afternoon, and fell asleep on my bed, then jumped up, thanked God that I'd only been sleeping for thrity mins, then realised I had a bunch of smses in (whoops), then went back to work. ):
Then Dinner, a big one okay? >.< I've been eating so much!!! I don't know if I'll grow up or sideways. :P I sure hope upwards. Okay, ya I know I should exercise more. :P If I don't reach 160 by the time i'm seventeen I think I'll be miserable. Only three/four more years to grow D: How come women stop growing so much earlier than men? >.< Not fair......
Anyways, I have to get back to work sorry I know this is crappy. :P
imust!
that's the very most I can say, what more can you want?
If only it were possible... is it Lord?
If only...
But its my responsibility.
And no... I didn't know... is it really? Sighs. Is it really really? Lord only you know.
Okay ya, I know its hard to get, but anyways,
I'll stay joyful and peaceful.
Loves,
Justme Justine.
Justine was busy thinking about her life at 10.37PM
Thank you God. Yaynessestictismness...
Today was relatively a good day. A poor rather drowsy school day, but after the last period, WHEE!
Napfa, which I did better than I
expected, (Except for sit and reach which was
the one item that would have prevented me from
getting a gold... >.< But I just managed.
I should get a gold if I'm not
wrong.) Anyways, we finished earlier than I
expected. And I'd already ran on fri, so
yay.
Um... ya. I felt really sleepy this afternoon, and fell asleep on my bed, then jumped up, thanked God that I'd only been sleeping for thrity mins, then realised I had a bunch of smses in (whoops), then went back to work. ):
Then Dinner, a big one okay? >.< I've been eating so much!!! I don't know if I'll grow up or sideways. :P I sure hope upwards. Okay, ya I know I should exercise more. :P If I don't reach 160 by the time i'm seventeen I think I'll be miserable. Only three/four more years to grow D: How come women stop growing so much earlier than men? >.< Not fair......
Anyways, I have to get back to work sorry I know this is crappy. :P
imust!
that's the very most I can say, what more can you want?
If only it were possible... is it Lord?
If only...
But its my responsibility.
And no... I didn't know... is it really? Sighs. Is it really really? Lord only you know.
Okay ya, I know its hard to get, but anyways,
I'll stay joyful and peaceful.
Loves,
Justme Justine.
Justine was busy thinking about her life at 10.37PM
19/04/09 15:46
Provoke
my thoughts.
Loves,
Justme Justine.
Justine was busy thinking about her life at 3.46PM
Loves,
Justme Justine.
Justine was busy thinking about her life at 3.46PM
Perception.
18/04/09 14:38
No one
wants to be alone. We were made to have this desire,
we were created with the ability, to love. Because He
loves, and is love.
Even the little children yearn to be loved... but are they able? I want to believe they are. When I reflect on my own pri school life, a lot of things come up to be pondered about.
I forgot that little children have sad times too. (Its easy to forget. And I must remember to remember everything I experience now too or my children, one day and if I do have children, will complain that their mom doesn't understand them. But our parents actually do understand, they have, after all, gone through all this, though not in the exact same situation or time.
Sometimes, its on the children's part that there is miscommunication. Even as it is important that parents remember to understand their children's feelings, it is important for children to understand their parents. But I guess its obviously harder to understand something you have not experienced yet... parenthood. But parents usually have the best of intentions for their own kids.) And I am now off topic, (and I could go on about this subject, but it wasn't my main intention to talk about parent-children relationships...) but that paragraph was none the less important. Back to before the brackets, and just in case you forgot what I was talking about...
I forgot that little children have sad times too...
But now I remember... and there are things I don't like to, but I guess God gives us experiences for a reason... some help us to learn, some help us identify with and help people who experience the same thing. This occurs frequently in my life... -.- But I can't complain about what God wants for me to do.
God let me experience how it felt to be alone, so I could help those who were lonely, He let me feel how it felt to be hurt, so I could empathize with those who were hurt too, and He let me feel loved and gave me understanding, so I could spread His love, and understand others. What a blessing in disguise! God works in amazing ways, we just have to see it through His eyes. The big picture is never easy to see, but you Can see it, if you only tried. There are loads of experiences I went through that really helped me see. Unfortunately, it is easy to forget, but God sends us little reminders everyday, we just have to chose to see it.
Loves,
Justme Justine
Justine was busy thinking and thanking the Lord for her life at 2.38pm.
Even the little children yearn to be loved... but are they able? I want to believe they are. When I reflect on my own pri school life, a lot of things come up to be pondered about.
I forgot that little children have sad times too. (Its easy to forget. And I must remember to remember everything I experience now too or my children, one day and if I do have children, will complain that their mom doesn't understand them. But our parents actually do understand, they have, after all, gone through all this, though not in the exact same situation or time.
Sometimes, its on the children's part that there is miscommunication. Even as it is important that parents remember to understand their children's feelings, it is important for children to understand their parents. But I guess its obviously harder to understand something you have not experienced yet... parenthood. But parents usually have the best of intentions for their own kids.) And I am now off topic, (and I could go on about this subject, but it wasn't my main intention to talk about parent-children relationships...) but that paragraph was none the less important. Back to before the brackets, and just in case you forgot what I was talking about...
I forgot that little children have sad times too...
But now I remember... and there are things I don't like to, but I guess God gives us experiences for a reason... some help us to learn, some help us identify with and help people who experience the same thing. This occurs frequently in my life... -.- But I can't complain about what God wants for me to do.
God let me experience how it felt to be alone, so I could help those who were lonely, He let me feel how it felt to be hurt, so I could empathize with those who were hurt too, and He let me feel loved and gave me understanding, so I could spread His love, and understand others. What a blessing in disguise! God works in amazing ways, we just have to see it through His eyes. The big picture is never easy to see, but you Can see it, if you only tried. There are loads of experiences I went through that really helped me see. Unfortunately, it is easy to forget, but God sends us little reminders everyday, we just have to chose to see it.
Loves,
Justme Justine
Justine was busy thinking and thanking the Lord for her life at 2.38pm.
Truth or dare.
15/04/09 21:16
PHYSICS
IS OVER (for now... still have another test on the
6/5... -_- ) Tmr: EMATH!!!! (Followed by next week's
Lit PBQ (!!!!!!), and Chem, oh and AMATH!! D: (And
apparently Chinese.), then we go all over again. ):
Just bombarded with all them tests. ): I'm not too
good at the school stuff. Especially compared to all
these super smart ppl in my school. Its definitely a
challenge, a big difference from when I was in pri 6.
I never expected myself to get all bothered about grades, but in sec three... those marks matter. I wonder how future levels of studies will be...
I refuse to be that girl again! Wrapped up in her problems, too covered up in her problems to let herself see the light in front of her.
Will I take the truth or the dare?
Haha, figure me out.
Loves,
Justme Justine
Justine was busy thinking and thanking the Lord for her life at 9.16pm.
I never expected myself to get all bothered about grades, but in sec three... those marks matter. I wonder how future levels of studies will be...
I refuse to be that girl again! Wrapped up in her problems, too covered up in her problems to let herself see the light in front of her.
Will I take the truth or the dare?
Haha, figure me out.
Loves,
Justme Justine
Justine was busy thinking and thanking the Lord for her life at 9.16pm.
SC Squash B Division won against MGS
14/04/09 21:09
Haha,
never thought I'd devote the title of a blog post to
a sports competition! So just to disappoint you, I'll
start from after lit lecture. :P
Today was tiring, I guess, but more mentally than physically. After lit lecture, the second last period of tues, the full lit girls in my class returned to class. Six of us, except Jas wasn't there cuz she's in squash. The rest are full geog, and one or two full hist. The others weren't back yet, mainly because we were let off 10mins early! Yayness. So we got back to class,
and like nearly immediately about three heads
zonked down on our tables. Haha.
What seemed like seconds later, but was probably exactly 10 mins later... I hear Samuel Lim's voice, and jump up immediately. The geog girls are starting to come back. So I grabbed my physics stuff, and went upstairs for physics with Steph and Huijun, cuz my class is divided into Mr Lim's and Mdm Goh's classes. And I'm in Mdm Goh's class upstairs. D: I have to go to other classes for most of my lessons. D: Chem's in PR, Lit's in GY, Geog's in DY... and so on. Just English, my two Maths and SS are with my form class, in my own classroom. Its like homeroom, just don't have to carry bag around. Am I rambling? Haha opps.
Okay, anyways, we went to support squash after school. It was a fun to watch, and scream. Oh my goodness, Sherlyn was so
good. Loads of stamina. Congrats B Division!!!
You guys did great! Whee!
Okay, I'm done for today, have to study for tmr's physics. D:
Haha I actually managed to write a more or less "normal" post. One about what I actually did today. One about a bunch of school stuff. And I might have actually put ppl
to sleep too! Ha... who am I kidding. No one
actually reads this thing right?
Anyways,
Loves,
Justme Justine
Justine was busy thinking and thanking the Lord for her life at 9.09pm.
Today was tiring, I guess, but more mentally than physically. After lit lecture, the second last period of tues, the full lit girls in my class returned to class. Six of us, except Jas wasn't there cuz she's in squash. The rest are full geog, and one or two full hist. The others weren't back yet, mainly because we were let off 10mins early!
Yayness. So we got back to class,
and like nearly immediately about three heads
zonked down on our tables. Haha.
What seemed like seconds later, but was probably exactly 10 mins later... I hear Samuel Lim's voice, and jump up immediately. The geog girls are starting to come back. So I grabbed my physics stuff, and went upstairs for physics with Steph and Huijun, cuz my class is divided into Mr Lim's and Mdm Goh's classes. And I'm in Mdm Goh's class upstairs. D: I have to go to other classes for most of my lessons. D: Chem's in PR, Lit's in GY, Geog's in DY... and so on. Just English, my two Maths and SS are with my form class, in my own classroom. Its like homeroom, just don't have to carry bag around.
Am I rambling? Haha opps.
Okay, anyways, we went to support squash after school. It was a fun to watch, and scream.
Oh my goodness, Sherlyn was so
good. Loads of stamina. Congrats B Division!!!
You guys did great! Whee!
Okay, I'm done for today, have to study for tmr's physics. D:
Haha I actually managed to write a more or less "normal" post. One about what I actually did today. One about a bunch of school stuff.
And I might have actually put ppl
to sleep too! Ha... who am I kidding. No one
actually reads this thing right?
Anyways,
Loves,
Justme Justine
Justine was busy thinking and thanking the Lord for her life at 9.09pm.
Quiz- Ten things
12/04/09 19:14
Haha took
it from Charms' notes. :P
TEN ARE YOUS
1. Are you single – Haha, ya. Anyone wanna take me? NO. JKJK.
2. Are you happy – Yups.
3. Are you bored – No. Slightly amused actually.
4. Are you fair – Not really... But I'm not that dark either.
5. Are you Italian - No? -_-
6. Are you intelligent – No. D:
7. Are you honest – I try to be. D:
8. Are you nice – Haha. Some people think so. Others also don't think so- a lot. :P
9. Are you Irish - No...
10. Are you Asian - Nationality-wise: No. Race-wise: Yes.
FACTS
1. Full Name – Justine Naomi So. (My chinese name isn't reflected on my BC.)
2. Nicknames – Dun really have :O J, Just, Justineie <3...
3. Hair color - Brown black.
4. Natural hair style – Straight/Wavy.
5. Eye Color - Black/Brown.
6. Birthday – 8 Oct.
7. Favorite color - Purple/ White/ Silver/ Grey.
8. One place you'd like to visit – Vancouver, well... visit isn't the word.
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love – Haha, I don't believe so... Maybe I've just been in like. I'm still too immature to fully love. Who wants to disagree?
2. Do you believe in love at first sight - Nope. That's called infatuation.
3. Do you currently have a crush? – A crush? Decidedly no.
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - Duh. >.<<br />5. Have you ever broken someone's heart – Don't think so... Anyone want to protest?
6. Have you ever had your heart broken - Yes... ):
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them - I think so? O.o? Not really......
8. Are you afraid of commitment - Yep.
9. Who was the last person you hugged – Probably my Mom, or Carissa.
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? – Hm... I can't remember. I think I said "loves" to Domi.
TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust - Love.
2. Hard liquor or beer - Wine.
4. A few best friends or any regular friends - Few close friends.
5. Creamy or Crunchy - Creamy?
6. Pencil or Pen – PEN!
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - Romantic night in
8. Money or Happiness - Happiness, always!!!
9. Night or day - Hm... Night is always dangerous... but Day is always clearer. But night is still more interesting...
10. IM or phone – Phone...
TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out – No.
2. Seen a polar bear – Duh?
3. Done something you regret – Lots of times. ): Usually end up hurting myself. >.<
4. Bungee jumped - NO!!!!!
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor – Duh. -_-
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker – No...
7. Been caught naked – By who?!?!?
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - Ahem.
9. Cried because you lost a pet - No... all I ever lost was fish.
10. Wanted to disappear – Of course.
TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes - Both are fine...
2. Light or dark hair - Dark?
3. Hugs or kisses- Both? ;P
4. Shorter or taller - Than me? Taller duh... -_- Its not that hard to be taller than me.
5. Intelligence or attraction - God's call (:
6. Topman or Zara - Huh?
7. Funny or serious - As long as its in the right situation.
8. Older or Younger – I was hoping older...
10. Sweet or Bad - Sweet, duh. -_-
TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Yep.
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour – Haha.. Not sure. Long enough to kill my battery...
3. Ever tried walking on your hands - NO.
4. Ever been to a rock concert - No.
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team – No.
6. Ever been on a dance team – The Talenttime concert count?
7. Ever been on a sports team – No.
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - My CCA is Drama. -_-
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? –No
TEN LASTS
1. Last phone call you made - Mom, today.
2. Last person you hugged – Mom.
3. Last person you hung out with – Hm... Can't remember.
4. Last time you worked – School work? Everyday. D:
5. Last person you talked to - Carissa/Mom.
6. Last person you IM'd - Domi.
7. Last person you texted – Samuel.
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with – Loooong ago. D:
9. Last person/thing you missed – Hm... ...
10. Last website visited – Can't remember. -_- Too many.
TEN ARE YOUS
1. Are you single – Haha, ya. Anyone wanna take me? NO. JKJK.
2. Are you happy – Yups.
3. Are you bored – No. Slightly amused actually.
4. Are you fair – Not really... But I'm not that dark either.
5. Are you Italian - No? -_-
6. Are you intelligent – No. D:
7. Are you honest – I try to be. D:
8. Are you nice – Haha. Some people think so. Others also don't think so- a lot. :P
9. Are you Irish - No...
10. Are you Asian - Nationality-wise: No. Race-wise: Yes.
FACTS
1. Full Name – Justine Naomi So. (My chinese name isn't reflected on my BC.)
2. Nicknames – Dun really have :O J, Just, Justineie <3...
3. Hair color - Brown black.
4. Natural hair style – Straight/Wavy.
5. Eye Color - Black/Brown.
6. Birthday – 8 Oct.
7. Favorite color - Purple/ White/ Silver/ Grey.
8. One place you'd like to visit – Vancouver, well... visit isn't the word.
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love – Haha, I don't believe so... Maybe I've just been in like. I'm still too immature to fully love. Who wants to disagree?
2. Do you believe in love at first sight - Nope. That's called infatuation.
3. Do you currently have a crush? – A crush? Decidedly no.
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - Duh. >.<<br />5. Have you ever broken someone's heart – Don't think so... Anyone want to protest?
6. Have you ever had your heart broken - Yes... ):
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them - I think so? O.o? Not really......
8. Are you afraid of commitment - Yep.
9. Who was the last person you hugged – Probably my Mom, or Carissa.
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? – Hm... I can't remember. I think I said "loves" to Domi.
TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust - Love.
2. Hard liquor or beer - Wine.
4. A few best friends or any regular friends - Few close friends.
5. Creamy or Crunchy - Creamy?
6. Pencil or Pen – PEN!
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - Romantic night in
8. Money or Happiness - Happiness, always!!!
9. Night or day - Hm... Night is always dangerous... but Day is always clearer. But night is still more interesting...
10. IM or phone – Phone...
TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out – No.
2. Seen a polar bear – Duh?
3. Done something you regret – Lots of times. ): Usually end up hurting myself. >.<
4. Bungee jumped - NO!!!!!
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor – Duh. -_-
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker – No...
7. Been caught naked – By who?!?!?
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - Ahem.
9. Cried because you lost a pet - No... all I ever lost was fish.
10. Wanted to disappear – Of course.
TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes - Both are fine...
2. Light or dark hair - Dark?
3. Hugs or kisses- Both? ;P
4. Shorter or taller - Than me? Taller duh... -_- Its not that hard to be taller than me.
5. Intelligence or attraction - God's call (:
6. Topman or Zara - Huh?
7. Funny or serious - As long as its in the right situation.
8. Older or Younger – I was hoping older...
10. Sweet or Bad - Sweet, duh. -_-
TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Yep.
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour – Haha.. Not sure. Long enough to kill my battery...
3. Ever tried walking on your hands - NO.
4. Ever been to a rock concert - No.
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team – No.
6. Ever been on a dance team – The Talenttime concert count?
7. Ever been on a sports team – No.
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - My CCA is Drama. -_-
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? –No
TEN LASTS
1. Last phone call you made - Mom, today.
2. Last person you hugged – Mom.
3. Last person you hung out with – Hm... Can't remember.
4. Last time you worked – School work? Everyday. D:
5. Last person you talked to - Carissa/Mom.
6. Last person you IM'd - Domi.
7. Last person you texted – Samuel.
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with – Loooong ago. D:
9. Last person/thing you missed – Hm... ...
10. Last website visited – Can't remember. -_- Too many.
Realizing. Knowing. Growing.
11/04/09 13:46
Okay I
feel like super stupid. Why am I so dumb?
But at least now I know.
Now I understand.
Now I see.
Now.
Now it'll be alright.
Now it won't bother me anymore.
I can have better self- control now.
I'm going to avoid making those serious plunges.
The light is awful beautiful.
God Bless.
May you also come to realizations too.
The little things we will experience in life. We learn from them. So I guess we can't avoid them.
Though I knew everything in theory, I didn't have the experience, nor did I have the ability to avoid. I am going to work on that. Really. Someone slap me if I whine about that again.
I don't want to make a mistake. Please don't take me wrong. I promise I tried hard to... but it seems to have turned out wrong. I don't want to get in trouble.
Okay now I'll stop thinking about it completely. Mom says that the more you dwell on it, the more you fuel.
Anyways,
Yesterday Good Friday. Cast all burdens, all sin, all laws.
Loves,
Justme Justine
P.s. Why does it seem... oh nvm. :p
Justine was busy thinking and thanking the Lord for her life at 1.46pm.
But at least now I know.
Now I understand.
Now I see.
Now.
Now it'll be alright.
Now it won't bother me anymore.
I can have better self- control now.
I'm going to avoid making those serious plunges.
The light is awful beautiful.
God Bless.
May you also come to realizations too.
The little things we will experience in life. We learn from them. So I guess we can't avoid them.
Though I knew everything in theory, I didn't have the experience, nor did I have the ability to avoid. I am going to work on that. Really. Someone slap me if I whine about that again.
I don't want to make a mistake. Please don't take me wrong. I promise I tried hard to... but it seems to have turned out wrong. I don't want to get in trouble.
Okay now I'll stop thinking about it completely. Mom says that the more you dwell on it, the more you fuel.
Anyways,
Yesterday Good Friday. Cast all burdens, all sin, all laws.
Loves,
Justme Justine
P.s. Why does it seem... oh nvm. :p
Justine was busy thinking and thanking the Lord for her life at 1.46pm.
Jelly walls, bouncing clay.
08/04/09 17:42
Its been
a real roller-coaster ride for everyone. Doubt.
Pressure. Blah blah. I already whined about it all in
previous posts, so I shall spare you the continued
torture. It just seems that it will take quite a bit
to get back on track. I hope we all make it.
This past week, or a bit further back than that, I came up with a theory: all walls are made of jelly. This was so I didn't look stupid when I banged myself against a wall in frustration. Since walls are made of jelly, they aren't supposed to hurt.
But they do.
Do you actually believe me? Goodness... Jelly walls is not just a stupid theory! -_- Think deeper dearie. Most of my phrases have deeper meaning!!! >.<
I'm not going to explain it. Kinda depressing. Abstractly... hey, its an abstract world okay? Plus. I don't think anyone's going to actually read this and care anyways. Does anyone actually read this thing? That'll be the day.
Which has to do with bounce. Jelly is bouncy too.
It seems like no matter how hard I try to get rid of all this junk in my life, it comes bounding right back at me, and it hits hard. I really want to rid of all this emotional ramble. But how? It just keeps coming back.
God help me please...
On another note, I borrowed a devotional book from Steph. Today's lessons, attitude, joy and an attitude of thanksgiving. (I read three. ;]) Its true. I tend to forget, fine, completely trash joy. But I do experience joy at those despairing moments... That moment in the exact middle of the midst of a terrible storm... the moment that you simply cannot live on without giving it all up to God. And suddenly, you realise how you haven't been relying on God, but your own strengths. And at that moment, you give yourself to him again, and that feeling of peace just washes over you like a river. And you find joy.
I have a long way to learn.
And today, I came up with a new theory: The whole world's made of jelly.
Now, I need a godly reasoning for it. No more despairing reasonings.
I am currently in the state of peace. May God let it last. May I let God let it last.
Loves,
Justme Justine
Justine was busy thinking and thanking the Lord for her life at 5.42pm.
This past week, or a bit further back than that, I came up with a theory: all walls are made of jelly. This was so I didn't look stupid when I banged myself against a wall in frustration. Since walls are made of jelly, they aren't supposed to hurt.
But they do.
Do you actually believe me? Goodness... Jelly walls is not just a stupid theory! -_- Think deeper dearie. Most of my phrases have deeper meaning!!! >.<
I'm not going to explain it. Kinda depressing. Abstractly... hey, its an abstract world okay? Plus. I don't think anyone's going to actually read this and care anyways. Does anyone actually read this thing? That'll be the day.
Which has to do with bounce. Jelly is bouncy too.
It seems like no matter how hard I try to get rid of all this junk in my life, it comes bounding right back at me, and it hits hard. I really want to rid of all this emotional ramble. But how? It just keeps coming back.
God help me please...
On another note, I borrowed a devotional book from Steph. Today's lessons, attitude, joy and an attitude of thanksgiving. (I read three. ;]) Its true. I tend to forget, fine, completely trash joy. But I do experience joy at those despairing moments... That moment in the exact middle of the midst of a terrible storm... the moment that you simply cannot live on without giving it all up to God. And suddenly, you realise how you haven't been relying on God, but your own strengths. And at that moment, you give yourself to him again, and that feeling of peace just washes over you like a river. And you find joy.
I have a long way to learn.
And today, I came up with a new theory: The whole world's made of jelly.
Now, I need a godly reasoning for it. No more despairing reasonings.
I am currently in the state of peace. May God let it last. May I let God let it last.
Loves,
Justme Justine
Justine was busy thinking and thanking the Lord for her life at 5.42pm.
Popping bubbles.
05/04/09 18:20
Okay.
Seriously. Why?!?!?!?
I wish I could be like other people. My friends. Anyone normal. Go all crazy over an A2 that should have been an A1, or freak over a special project, or scream cuz my CCA is facing tough competition or something. But no, it has to be THAT that bothers me. Why?!?!? Why can't I be bothered by something else?!?!?!
And why do I have to be so complex?!?!? Why can't I have a simple, and clever brain? I know that's contradictory, but when you think about it it makes all the sense in the world. Seriously. I wish I had a single goal in life. Like a future career???? Like something that has a realistic and rational point to it? I need rational.
There goes my english. Out the window. Seriously. No one else cares about this as much as I do. Which is why I shouldn't be giving it so much thought.
I don't want to fall.
God, please?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!?
Popping bubbles. Analyzing it from a literature student's angle, I can come up with several different reasonings on why someone would say that, but they aren't very strong reasonings, I think.
Like how unstable a bubble is... and how its easily broken? The person saying it is probably feeling very unsteady or unsure, like a bubble, or feels like she/he is about to pop.
Or how she wishes she would be like a bubble, light and free to fly away with the wind...
Or very literally, something about actually popping someone's bubble. Or that the person's bubble had just been popped.
Or, playing with bubbles is like a symbol of childhood innocence. And she/he wishes for that...
I'm sure there's more. But I can't really think of it right now. I'm such a poor lit student. >.<
My head hurts.
Loves,
Justme Justine
Justine was busy thinking and thanking the Lord for her life at 6.20pm.
I wish I could be like other people. My friends. Anyone normal. Go all crazy over an A2 that should have been an A1, or freak over a special project, or scream cuz my CCA is facing tough competition or something. But no, it has to be THAT that bothers me. Why?!?!? Why can't I be bothered by something else?!?!?!
And why do I have to be so complex?!?!? Why can't I have a simple, and clever brain? I know that's contradictory, but when you think about it it makes all the sense in the world. Seriously. I wish I had a single goal in life. Like a future career???? Like something that has a realistic and rational point to it? I need rational.
There goes my english. Out the window. Seriously. No one else cares about this as much as I do. Which is why I shouldn't be giving it so much thought.
I don't want to fall.
God, please?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!?
Popping bubbles. Analyzing it from a literature student's angle, I can come up with several different reasonings on why someone would say that, but they aren't very strong reasonings, I think.
Like how unstable a bubble is... and how its easily broken? The person saying it is probably feeling very unsteady or unsure, like a bubble, or feels like she/he is about to pop.
Or how she wishes she would be like a bubble, light and free to fly away with the wind...
Or very literally, something about actually popping someone's bubble. Or that the person's bubble had just been popped.
Or, playing with bubbles is like a symbol of childhood innocence. And she/he wishes for that...
I'm sure there's more. But I can't really think of it right now. I'm such a poor lit student. >.<
My head hurts.
Loves,
Justme Justine
Justine was busy thinking and thanking the Lord for her life at 6.20pm.
Temptation.
04/04/09 17:03
Its hard
to say no isn't it? Very. And you face it everyday,
nearly constantly.
I don't want to falllllll.........
I don't don't don't.
Please God...
Anyways, I haven't written about the cherry chocolates right? Its kinda funny... Like there was a box of chocolates in the fridge... so guess who was the first to notice it? :P Haha. So there was this really inaccurate flavors card attached to it. Except for one, which was labelled "Cherry......" Shiny red wrapping. So I tried it. It was bitter. The first thing I thought was "wow... this taste is familiar... not dark chocolate... I've tasted it before though..." Then I examined the card again, then went to my Mom.
"Is this what I think it says?"
So there was a bit of liquor in the chocolate. Which was why I recognized the taste. Probably red wine, but not sure. The flavor on the card was in French or something. But anyways... Mom said as long as I didn't eat too many at a time it was okay.
I've had a few since. Not at one go, obviously. I kinda like the cherry chocolates.
Anyways, from what happened, I actually came to several lessons about life as well. For one, how you can never tell what is on the inside from the outside... how even if you are already told what is on the inside, you don't necessarily understand it. And I also remembered the line from Forest Gump, "Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know which one you're gonna get." Which I think was so true... and yeah more. So I guess you never know when you can learn stuff through situations in life.
Chocolates.
On a side note, I had coffee this morning. A whole cup. Its been at least a
week since I last had some, I'm sure... Thank
you Mummy!
Anyways, I have to get back to work. D: Sorry that this entry is so disorganized.
God Bless! And watch out for suspicious chocolates! ;P
Loves,
Justme Justine
Justine was busy thinking and thanking the Lord for her life at 5.43pm.
I don't want to falllllll.........
I don't don't don't.
Please God...
Anyways, I haven't written about the cherry chocolates right? Its kinda funny... Like there was a box of chocolates in the fridge... so guess who was the first to notice it? :P Haha. So there was this really inaccurate flavors card attached to it. Except for one, which was labelled "Cherry......" Shiny red wrapping. So I tried it. It was bitter. The first thing I thought was "wow... this taste is familiar... not dark chocolate... I've tasted it before though..." Then I examined the card again, then went to my Mom.
"Is this what I think it says?"
So there was a bit of liquor in the chocolate. Which was why I recognized the taste. Probably red wine, but not sure. The flavor on the card was in French or something. But anyways... Mom said as long as I didn't eat too many at a time it was okay.
I've had a few since. Not at one go, obviously. I kinda like the cherry chocolates.
Anyways, from what happened, I actually came to several lessons about life as well. For one, how you can never tell what is on the inside from the outside... how even if you are already told what is on the inside, you don't necessarily understand it. And I also remembered the line from Forest Gump, "Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know which one you're gonna get." Which I think was so true... and yeah more. So I guess you never know when you can learn stuff through situations in life.
Chocolates.
On a side note, I had coffee this morning.
A whole cup. Its been at least a
week since I last had some, I'm sure... Thank
you Mummy!
Anyways, I have to get back to work. D: Sorry that this entry is so disorganized.
God Bless! And watch out for suspicious chocolates! ;P
Loves,
Justme Justine
Justine was busy thinking and thanking the Lord for her life at 5.43pm.
